Wednesday, August 31, 2011

A Brief Update

I'm really sorry guys. I know I haven't updated in ages. I've just been in this weird sort of rut in my life. I've also been really busy with school and blah, blah, blah. I could come up with an endless list of excuses, but the simple truth is that I haven't felt worthy of even coming on here. I don't feel like I even deserve support because I've just been sabotaging my every effort to lose weight. I've been bingeing basically nonstop since I quit my water fast, and I've been smoking which makes me binge more, and the smoking also makes me not give one flying fuck about what I eat or how I look, or anything for that matter. I cease to care about my life or anything around me. It's a pleasant numb feeling to not give a fuck, but then I wake up in the morning and feel like such a horrible failure. At least I seem to be losing weight again. My body freaked out on me after the water fast and started packing on the pounds REALLY quickly, but it seems to have settled down now. I've started tracking everything I eat again, so that should be a help. As long as I can stay motivated and stop myself from being lazy, I might be able to pull my shit together. I just hope that happens soon. I'm sorry for being away and I apologize in advance if you don't hear from me in a while, but I will really try to kick myself in the ass and get a move on. :) Hopefully soon I will be back to my motivated, daily blog updating, rapid weight losing self.
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6 comments:

  1. kesAugust 31, 2011 at 8:58 PM

    Tomorrow is a new month. Maybe you should focus on making September a great month for weight loss. Don't worry about what you have been doing that is causing you to binge or gain weight or anything. Just focus on how you can make September a great month. Wake up tomorrow with the motivation to succeed and focus on weight loss and make September your month.

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  2. ChristinaAugust 31, 2011 at 11:03 PM

    Kes is right, tomorrow is a new month which means a new start. You can start afresh and this time you will be able to do it.
    We're all here for you.
    xx

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  3. RunAugust 31, 2011 at 11:11 PM

    I definitely agree with Kes and 'real name' twin up there :P Well my names starts with a K not a C.
    September is a new month which means a new start. Forget about August. It's over with now and just focus on the month ahead.
    xx

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  4. WeightlessAugust 31, 2011 at 11:45 PM

    never feel like you are unworthy of support, this is YOUR blog, you can write whatever you please no matter where you are in life, you should never feel like you shouldn't even write because we all want to hear from you whether you're gaining, losing, bingeing, fasting. Things will only get better <3

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  5. JaxSeptember 1, 2011 at 6:06 PM

    glad you're back, doll. i hope you can back to losing super soon! you'll always have my support!

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  6. Sam LupinSeptember 3, 2011 at 5:05 AM

    Oh, baby! We've all had our rut sometimes. I'm trying not to fast much. Just a day. 24 hours. Nothing more. I've learned my lesson. Tracking is hard. It's painful to see the numbers again. But restricting is working. I miss you so very much. I haven't been the best blogger either. I've been a good restricter for the last week or so, but a horrible blogger. <3 <3
    *huggles*
    It's going to be fine, my love! It'll all be good. You'll lose those pounds again! ;D And I'll be here with you. <3

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